*itch*

“I hope you have a spiritual path. It doesn’t matter what kind, as long as you have some relationship with a benevolent source of life and love beyond your little ego. Having said that, I also want to advocate the importance of not taking your spiritual path too damn seriously. Grave fanaticism in any form, even if devoted to a noble cause, is dangerous not only to your mental health, but also to that of the people around you. This week it will be especially important for you to be playfully mocking towards that which you hold most sacred. Examples? Put underwear on a Buddha statue, insert a dirty limerick into your prayers to the Goddess, enjoy some heavy petting in a synagogue, visualize yourself tickling Jesus.” — Free Will Astrology : Gemini Horoscope

Hehehe… In other words be myself, eh? The other horoscope I regularly receive in email says something quite different :

“It’s an auspicious time for meetings. Standing face to face on common ground is the best way to showcase the possibilities. Former rivals may not be ready to close a deal, but the fact that they’re talking ushers in a new era. You throw yourself into an intellectual exchange when you see how well it’s going. You’re surprised to hear the words coming out of your mouth, yet they feel rehearsed and true. Those who don’t already think you’re a genius are suddenly convinced. Who knew brilliance could be so spontaneous? Your new friends bring out the best in you.”

I wonder if I can combine the two. Hehe… that would be something, eh? Actually, I can’t even imagine what either of those are talking about. I haven’t, as far as I know, been talking to any former rivals, nor was I planning any long discourse on spirituality. I’m not actually talking to anyone on a daily basis, mostly because I haven’t booted up Trillian in days. The mailing lists are fairly quiet, as well. The only places I’ve posted are over at blogshares and on my own forums… oh, and here, of course.

I finally went and caught up on reading my Friends’ entries at LiveJournal. Didn’t really see anything there I wanted to respond to… oh, I could have added a note here and there, but I dunno, I just didn’t feel like getting into it tonight. Actually, I’ve been feeling sort of hermit-like, other than blogshares. I feel like I’m pretty much out of touch with everyone and just out here walking around on my own… and that’s fine. I’m ok with that.

I worked on my sigfiles tonight and added some really nice quotes to them… things that I felt were of spiritual significance. Maybe that has some relevance to the horoscope thingies above? Heh. I doubt it. When I don’t send email, no one sees those but me.

I feel like I should write something for my site, but I’m not sure what and I’m not feeling very inspired. I had hoped other people would start contributing content on a regular basis, but I guess they just don’t quite get the idea… or they’re flailing around dead in the water without a clue-paddle… one or the other, I’m not sure which.

Someone sent me a request for info on Aoibheal so that they can more accurately portray the part in a White Wolf RPG game in two days’ time. (!) Yeah, I’m not too keen on doing research for people who just want to use it to play games with, since they could have done this research themselves, especially after having tried to play the part previously and realizing they were getting it wrong. (Why the fuck are you playing that part if you know absolutely NOTHING about it? — Good question to be asking yourself, no?)

I find that kind of request irritating. To me, it’s kind of demeaning to be asked to do research for a purpose like that… like, I don’t take my heritage and culture seriously? Obviously, they don’t take it seriously or they wouldn’t have asked. Needless to say, I am disappointed getting a request like that… after all the work I’ve already done, after everything I’ve already written and given to the public. It reminds me of the requests I used to get for magic spells and love potions and instant-fix-type stuff. I’m sorry, but I’m not going to wave my magic wand and fulfill someone’s last-minute wants for some game…

Yes, they asked nicely enough, but that isn’t the point. I find it no different than walking up to a Native American you’ve never spoken to and asking them to please produce a report on Pocahontas so you can play the part tomorrow night in the community theatre with more “realism.” If they didn’t slug you for that, they’d certainly want to, believe me. And let’s not *even* get into the spiritual aspects of helping someone to do something like that (with Aoibheal OR Pocahontas)… I don’t even want to think about that… dancing Jesus, inDEED. *smirk* *itch*

Is it any wonder I’m feeling hermit-like? *chuckles* It’s things like this that drove me from the New Age Pagan forums and mailing lists and so-called communities in the first place. And then there’s that whole “Seelie/Unseelie Court” thing… I’m not sure where to even begin with that. I suppose I could ask for solid research (with cited sources) on when the terms began to be used and by whom, and see what comes out of that. I might do that, too.